Congrats to her I guess. What she chooses in her life is none of my concern, and she can do whatever she likes.
But you know? You find beauty in everything that is broken, you find truth and you find, most importantly, yourself.
So don’t mind them, don’t listen. Take heart in the fact that they’re bothering so much to even think of you. What people say of others, says SO MUCH more about themselves. Don’t react. Don’t be bitter. Don’t say anything mean back. You can even nod, smile and say “thank you”. It will confuse them. Or maybe they’ll think you’re crazy. So what? They do not have the power to hold you to any sadness or weight.
Lastly, when you get there— when you want to feel better, you will. It’s okay to be a hermit but it’s okay to find friends, too. Not everyone will leave but a lot will. Because we are young and I doubt anybody truly knows what they want or who they really are, so don’t let them decide who you are. Be cautious of who you let in, but don’t be too hard. The right ones will stay and they won’t judge. The right ones will understand that we all have skeletons that we are afraid to let out, we’re all human, and we all are afraid of something. If you are afraid, it means that it matters.
But above all, you matter, too. Don’t ever forget your worth. You are deserving just as anybody is deserving— including those bullies who make nasty remarks and choose to put you down. They are deserving, too. Nobody is any better or less. The phrases “good enough” and “not good enough” do not exist.
You do, though. So don’t be afraid to live. The pain you are feeling now, the confusion, the madness— it’s all in the process. And I’m not telling you the process is easy, actually, love, it’s really fucking hard. But as the corny saying goes, “I’m telling you it will be worth it”.” —1112pm (via 1112pm)
Finally got my laptop back. Its finally working! Now I can “study” for my midterm and get back to my sad, victim of the technological invention known as the internet lifestyle.